help.
(via depression-kills)
help.
(via depression-kills)
warning: potentially triggering
I was trying to fill in a form at uni today, to start going to counselling. There was a question which asked me if I planned to kill myself; it was a ‘yes or no’ question…how was I supposed to answer? No, I am not going to kill myself in the foreseeable future, but I have planned how I’ll do it, and under what circumstances I think it’s acceptable for me to do it. I think about suicide more than I am comfortable with, I self-harm but that has nothing to do with wanting to kill myself. Though whenever the train pulls into the station, or a bus drives past me or I’m on a bridge, I just think about what it’s be like if I just jumped. Would I be weightless? Would I fly? Would I feel pain? Would my mind be clear of all negativity?
When you’re visiting family at the weekend and you’re absolutely terrified because you know you’ll be patronised by some, irritated by the children, and your mother will mock you because she’s lost so much weight and you haven’t.
I am not new to Tumblr, but I’m too worried about what people I know will think of me if I post the things I’m going to post here on my personal blog.
This blog will be about my personal struggle with anxiety and depression, I’m just using it as an outlet because I am too scared to talk to people I know about my problems personally, in case they think I’m faking or they laugh at me.
I don’t expect hundreds of followers, this is not a blog for attention.
However, feel free to follow me and maybe send me some of your worries or stories about anxiety and depression, or even questions.
I would also like to add that I am actually a really nice person, I just might not come across as nice all the time. But I don’t mean to be nasty!
Hello and welcome to my blog.
